there’s nothing like making someone happy. Smile. i want to do it for life. then I can be happy. to turn somebody’s life around, that’s something i would die for. to find and bring reason into life, and prove to yourself that you are something. like a Power.
I told someone today to drive home safe, or that i would have to go after them to make sure things were okay. i was told gas is money. i smiled and walked away. my head said< money can’t buy life. so be safe.>
So today, i went out to shop with my sister for some stuff. We went to Utretch ( for you people who dont know, its an art store) for some art supplies and to just to absorb the art atmosphere. I wanted to buy every single thing in the store, but not the store, because that would cost..more. So after Utretch, we ate sandwiches next door from a bagel store; Hot Bage (the sign was broken). I had a roast beef, bacon and mozzarella sandwich. delish. Anyhoo, i wanted to go to Macy’s to buy a pair of jeans, skinny jeans, because i wanted it. woke up wanting one. it happens. levi jeans rock. there were so many, but i had my eyes on grey skinnies. picked it up and went to pay. Now this is where things just blew up.
I was waiting on line at the cashier. If u ever went to macy’s, some of the cashiers had like the 2 counters across from each other. There were two cashiers doin their thing. In front of me was an asian couple, paying. i was waitin,waitin,waitin, and another older couple behind me came. The wife put her clothes onto the counter, and i was like wait wtf. HEY!, but she was looking for something in her bag. Thank you. So the asian couple was still paying, and then the customer across was done. “Next.” i was about to go, BUT the fucking couple just runway walks to the other counter. MY TURN! i was about to explode and smack them across the head. like hard. thats not the only thing that got mad. i soon began to assume why they went. THEY ASSUMED THAT I WAS WITH THE ASIAN COUPLE!….. WHAT????? see, old white couples, (i think they were Russian or something) just dont know anything about asians. like really. They thought, a young asian couple, had a mature asian man like me…. REALLY. did they not see the jeans i was holding??? I glared at them for a good 2 minutes, they looked at me and didn’t know why.
if you think life is real, try again. imagine if all the things in this world were just illusions, the way we want things to seem. everything is just what we create, for our pleasure. its pretty astounding to sit down and really think, “wow, life is insanely complex”. how do we do this? if i said that the grass was green, you may agree. why? because we have all agreed that it just is. its like we are living in a conspiracy. someone decided to say that it is green, and everyone just so happened to decide to believe it. but what if i say that the grass is blue? you would probably walk away. don’t. consider the possibility that we live in a lie. that every single thing was merely a image. is it possible for someone next to me see’s everything completely different, while i’m sitting here staring at a very bright object in the ceiling. for all i know, that could be a tiny sun. it gives off heat, and light, which is energy. that means there are gazillions of suns. and that the sun scientists think of is not the only one, un-special. i always ask people, randomly, “do you ever just all of the sudden think about how this world we live in works?” I was driving one day, usual thing, and while i was cruising at 60, this surreal feeling took over my mind. i was just amazed that i was sitting and moving. sitting and moving. two contrasting things. that the thing i am sitting in was moving me, while maintaining a max of potential energy. its a strange, surreal feeling. as if i just discovered something new. but i didn’t. because its a common realization. or i think it is. im writing this blog on my laptop right now. typing actually. i’m watching words appear onto a image, something not real, just by pressing buttons. the average person would just keep typing, not realizing really what he/she is doing. as i started that sentence, it hit me again. the strange, surreal feeling. i just finished a paper for anthropology, on creationism. i did research on Theistic creationism. the belief that God created this world from will. and that nature unfolded itself from His creation. people argue over the idea that miracles exists. do they? it seems to me that everything we do in this world is quite miraculous. but it only seems that way. is God controlling everything that’s going on right now? no. He intended to design nature so it would only seem that things were miraculous. but in reality, its just nature doing its job. pretty wild. i guess that means we gotsta open our eyes bigger.
While sitting outside at campus today, i pondered about smokers. I was deeply suffocated by smoke. Smoke, nasty shit. I was staring at a girl smoking while on the computer. I would say she was quite the fancy one. Expensive clothing, nice hairstyle, the way she held that junk. It was at the perfect angle with her pointer finger. The way she blew that smoke out. I swear i saw angels shape in smoke. I also assumed she was artsy. Why? Because all artsy people try to be fancy. We have our style. While all of this observation was going on, in the span of maybe 20 seconds, i ignored the fact that i was smothered in that smoke. Her smoke. Smoke, nasty shit. I was thinking about the different types of smokers. The fancy ones, the ones who inhale forever, the dirty ones and a hundred others. Yes, there are that many believe it or not. Anyways, artsy… Whenever i drink something, my pinky finger shoots up. They say you got class then. Do i? i think i have my own type of class. its called Tryist. We don’t try, but we are. So if i smoked, according to my assumptions, i would be just like her. Would i accept that? Probably not. Would i enjoy that? Of course. I guess that means i’m artsy.
I'm telling you it's quite ridic and once you start getting followers and following other people religiously you will have nooo life :D Omg ok ready hold on......
i think this applies to all foreign parents but read these and tell me if they're true/funny :D
HAHAHAHA OH MAII GODD! Somewhat. It applies to very strict parents, like very traditional ones i guess, right? but my parents, especially my dad, hes the chillest person. He says do anything, jus dont get arrested. LOL
Omg ok now I totally know what you did. Don't worry I did the same thing. Yeah when you try to fix your page it looks like an example thing I know I know. :D eeee's ok anthony lol thats like the one thing I hate about tumblr.
….this is cooooooool :D:D:D:D:D:D. i feel like this is a new attachment of my life.